Advertisement

Daily Joys and Simple Pleasures

Daily Joys and Simple Pleasures

One Day Everything Shifted…

All through high school I wrote in my journal, “I want to be an artist.”

I kept writing it through my first several jobs after high school  Somewhere in the midst of becoming the Director of Public Relations at a private high school and coordinating all the graphics and newsletter and visual lay out work for the school I transitioned to saying, “I am an artist.”  One day everything shifted…

I asked Carmen Torbus about her experience identifying herself as an artist.  I’ll share her heartfelt reply with you.  Carmen’s book, THE ARTIST UNIQUE, is the subject of a series of ongoing posts.  I hope you are enjoying them…

Here’s Carmen’s answer and a piece of her current work…
I asked, “When did you first assert to the world at large, without qualification, “I am an artist?”  And she answered…

The truth is, I’m not sure I have without qualifying it.  (Suddenly feels the urge to hang head in shame.)  I still feel a little funny in my stomach when I say out loud that I am an artist.  I feel like an artist.  I paint and create and play with art supplies,  (and here comes the “but”) but what I love more than anything is the process.  I love painting.  I love making a ginormous mess with paint.  I love adding words and doodles and images and text.  I love learning new techniques, playing with texture tools and experimenting with color.

But does that make me an artist?  My heart tells me it does.  But my gremlins ask me questions like, “Who do you think you are anyway?” and then I question if I’m really an artist at all, and I compare myself to others and start the measure up game that never ends well.  Then something else happens.

I get the urge to go sit in my studio.  When that urge strikes and I lean into it, something deeper starts to stir.  I sit there in my chair at my art desk and I look at my art supplies and my art journals and my in-progress canvases and my blank canvases and my paint brushes…. and I instinctively reach for a tube of transparent yellow iron oxide paint and squeeze a little onto my palette and dip my finger in the paint and start painting.  And in that moment, I know, unequivocally, that I am an artist.

I may not always be fully prepared to assert it to the world at large, but if I assert it to myself often enough, and if I lean into my instincts enough, I’ll get there.

I think more than anything, my calling is to encourage, inspire and believe in other creative women on the verge – to empower them to lean into their own urges and instincts, until they are ready to believe in themselves.  That to me is another form of art – and that is the artist I am – to my core. 

 

More from Carmen and my ongoing exploration with Polymer Clay next week.

 

In the meantime…remember the words of Benjamin Franklin (although it is sometimes attributed to Thomas Jefferson)  as you creatively head into your own celebration of Independence Day…

 

Those who would give up Essential Liberty
to purchase a little Temporary Safety,
deserve neither Liberty nor Safety.

 

 

Advertisement
Comments read comments(1)
post a comment
Swirly

posted July 5, 2011 at 2:24 pm


I consider myself profoundly blessed that I have always known what I wanted to do. My problems (and they are good problems to have) are about HOW to express my calling. There are so many wonderful options!!



report abuse
 

Post a Comment

By submitting these comments, I agree to the beliefnet.com terms of service, rules of conduct and privacy policy (the "agreements"). I understand and agree that any content I post is licensed to beliefnet.com and may be used by beliefnet.com in accordance with the agreements.



Previous Posts

Editing: It's Not Just For Writing
"Editing. It's Not Just For Writing." I've spent much of my writing time since I was 28 trying to get rid of words. Editing down. Paring down. Getting to the core. I woke up this morning clear on the matter: that is what I am doing with the whole of my life. I see I am less defined by what I hav

posted 11:44:53am Mar. 24, 2015 | read full post »

"In Case of Emergency..."
There are two lines that people have to fill out when enrolling in school, in a new program, camp, new doctor... "Nearest relative."   "Person to call in case of emergency." In LIVE BOLDLY I explore several sides of the concept of family.  There's the family that you are born into and then

posted 3:38:18pm Mar. 17, 2015 | read full post »

Wondering About Racism, Jingoism and All The Other ISMS
Conversation around equality is uncomfortable. To begin with.  This is not a fresh circumstance. Equality has been a core component of conflict over the ages. Race. Age. Gender. Belief. Economic state. Land ownership. Ownership of all sorts.  It is disturbing for so many reasons. The way chauvinis

posted 10:57:09am Mar. 13, 2015 | read full post »

Do You Hate House Work?
I formalized an approach to house making last year. An approach I'd inadvertently applied (willy nilly) for many years.  I created a set of cards (that I offered in a bundle) titled THREE MINUTES, Seven Minutes and ELEVEN MINUTES.  Those were the most common time frames that various house keeping

posted 3:18:12pm Jan. 25, 2015 | read full post »

Remember and Do What Matters
Remember and Do What Matters Discovery Process with Mary Anne Radmacher, $99 February 1  - 22, 2015 You might not realize it but you do KNOW what matters to you. You really do! In the MUCH of daily living, it’s easy to disconnect from your MUST, the thing that puts wind beneath your wings

posted 6:07:55pm Jan. 20, 2015 | read full post »

Advertisement


Report as Inappropriate

You are reporting this content because it violates the Terms of Service.

All reported content is logged for investigation.