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Wings

Photo: Marking the passing and honoring the life of Debbie Ford. Prayers and healing for her family and those of us who have had the privelege of knowing her or her work. www.debbieford.com <3

 

This afternoon I received a group email from Arielle Ford that read Debbie Ford Gets Her Wings. I wondered what brilliant thing Arielle’s younger sister had done to earn them and I made a mental note to read it when I had time. It wasn’t until I was sitting at my desk at my job as an addictions counselor, that I opened it. All of a sudden I wasn’t in Lansdale, PA, but instead whisked cross country to California where Debbie’s family was immersed in their private grief that was simultaneously being shared by thousands of others. Tears flowed as my visceral reaction kicked in. I could only imagine what the journey from a gloomy cancer diagnosis a few years ago to transition last night, was like for Debbie and her loved ones.  My guess is that she faced it with what Ram Dass would call ‘fierce grace’. After reading Arielle’s message that directed folks to go to another site that was set up to honor Debbie’s memory, I knew that this blog entry needed to be written.

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Like most people, my intro to Debbie was through her writing. I had the joy of interviewing her when  her groundbreaking book: The Dark Side of The Light Chasers was released. It was a revelation to this light chaser who was (and still is) a perpetual optimist, refusing at times to look at anything remotely shadowy. I was sorting through back copies of Visions Magazine to locate the one in which it was published before writing this and couldn’t find it , so I will have to go from memory. One thing I recall was a story Debbie shared about being at a personal growth training and the facilitator called her a bitch. At first she was taken aback with what I imagine was a “who me?” reaction; much the same as I might have. And then she recognized the grain of truth in the woman’s perception of her and the ways in which pretending that she wasn’t a bitch ran her life and was her M.O. Of course, there were times when she was bitchy, as are we all. Then she came to understand that being a bitch came in handy at times when otherwise she might have been emotionally pushed around by others and needed to stand her ground. Did that ever ring true for me!  I was as if I had permission to be more fully expressed, set boundaries and be assertive rather than remain the starry eyed idealist who was like a dishrag at times and an emotional contortionist who would often bend over backward to please people.

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She went on to elaborate that what we most attempt to hide about ourselves, is eventually revealed and can become our greatest strength. These days, while I don’t quite embrace my shadow, at least she and I are on cordial, nodding at each other as we pass by, terms. I learned through Debbie’s work that even though I have what I call ‘cave thoughts and feelings’, judgements and mental ‘nasties’, I am still loveable.

Tonight as those who knew her best both mourn the loss of her physical presence and honor her place in their lives, I offer my heartfelt love and prayers to them and say Kaddish with them.

Rise up on those wings, Debbie and soar~

http://youtu.be/UKYgA2JaufY Om Shree Rama, Fly High-Deva Premal and Miten

www.debbieford.com

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Willing To Exhale

Guess who is doing what?

 

 

This morning, my friend Shaun Stephenson sent me a message in response to an article I had written about sexuality/spirituality. I had told her that I was stretching comfort zones by exploring that realm in writing, not because I have ever been a prude when it comes to  physical and emotional intimacy, but because of the environment where I had worked, I had been feeling a bit cautious about being too visible and outspoken about the topic.  As a therapist/social worker, I framed my work there, in part as sex education. Since leaving the job last June, I have felt a greater sense of freedom around expressing my thoughts in all areas of my life. I still occasionally look over my shoulder to see if the ‘propriety police’ are watching to be sure I am being a ‘good girl’ and not upsetting the apple cart, making waves or stepping on anyone’s toes…the final throes of co-dependence loosening its grip.

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She commented that I was exhaling, which brought to mind the  ensemble cast  (Whitney Houston, Angela Bassett, Loretta Devine, Lela Rochon, Gregory Hines) movie called Waiting To Exhale. For most of my life, (since I was 4 or so)  I had been at the effect of asthma that had me doing just that. Mostly unconsciously, but sometimes with complete awareness, I wouldn’t let an outbreath go completely since there was a fear that I wouldn’t be able to fill back up. Such a powerful symbol for how I lived my life…not letting go totally and not allowing in fully. Getting just enough nourishment in those ways to sustain me but not always have me feeling safe and at ease. It showed up in dysfunctional relationships in which I offered excessive care so as to ‘earn my right to receive’, whether it was praise, love, attention or approval.

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Later in the day, I was speaking at an event called Awaken The Love; specially timed for Valentine’s Day weekend. The room at a local Unitarian Church was packed with sweet souls who listened with rapt attention to the presenters and musicians who volunteered our time to the cause. Greg Campisi is the heart and mind behind Awaken. Fabulous musicians Annabella Wood, Ashley Blanco and Eric Labacz made our souls sing and Susan Pie’, Terrie Thomas and Greg gave us grist for the mill.

The purpose is : Assisting Humanity in reaching its fullest potential through the education, empowerment, and acceptance of ourselves and others.   Awaken is a Center for Human Evolution (CHE) where individuals and groups will be guided into their brightest, highest, and most beloved selves through the education and practice of empowerment, expression, love and acceptance.

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Awaken uses education as its primary tool for empowering people to know, understand, and live their greatest potential. The main catalyst used for empowerment is the expression of emotions and deepest truths within us, creating a space to accept vulnerability in ourselves and in others.

Awaken realizes the importance of helping future generations reach their full potential. This is accomplished both through working with youth, as well as helping current and future parents understand themselves and the needs and potential of their children.

Awaken is dedicated to bringing love and harmony to the hearts of all humankind through education and health. Awaken’s goals include, but are not limited to:

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  • Love and Acceptance of Self
  • Expression of Self
  • Love and Acceptance of Others
  • Evolution of Mind, Body and Spirit to their full Potential

As I stood in front of the room, I felt waves of love wash over me and watched with awe at the sheer willingness of each person there to surrender their belief that they were not worthy of love. They too, it seems, were holding their breath, holding back, holding off the tidal wave of love that had headed their way throughout their lives. I invited them to allow it to flow over them and through them so that they could absorb it and then, like a sponge, ring it out on those they encountered throughout their lives.

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Sandwiched in between services at Circle of Miracles earlier in the day and this event, I had another encounter that had me smiling and shaking my head in astonishment. I like to say that I am amazed, but never surprised when these things occur. I had stopped at Panera Bread for lunch and as I sat at a table next to the fireplace with my salad and bowl of black bean soup, a family (11 people in all) sat at two nearby tables. One member was the  delightful white haired matriarch who noticed a book I was reading. It is called 12 Weeks to Self-Healing:  Transforming Pain Through Energy Medicine, written by Candess Campbell. She asked “Oh, do you have pain?”  I assured her that I didn’t and added that I was a journalist and was reviewing the book. She told me that she does experience pain and that with the guidance of Deepak Chopra’s work, she is able to reframe her thoughts and thus vanquish the pain. How cool is that?  Our conversation continued and she asked me about my work. When I told her, she laughed and said “Oh, you do so many things.”  She went on to share that she is 79 years old and has a 91 year old boyfriend (good for them both!)  and that she wants to live to be 120. When I told her about being widowed many years ago, she asked if I had remarried. I told her I hadn’t and she winked and said, “You should snag a good man, with all that you have to offer.”  I winked back and said, he would have to be able to keep up with me and be really special to beckon me out of my single life. Somehow the conversation turned to asking each other our names, she tells me it is Edith and of course I smiled and introduced myself. Edie is her nickname and my birth name. What are the chances?  Only 100%. It is that certainty that life shows up in serendipitous ways that has me no longer waiting to exhale, but instead willing to exhale…..ahhhhh~

www.awakenche.org

http://youtu.be/pkAhQBbK-oM Shower The People- James Taylor

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It’s All About Relationships

Last night, I took a leap into another world of words and thoughts, feelings and flow as I launched a radio show called It’s All About Relationships, on Vivid Life Radio. It ties in so beautifully with the Bliss Blog, since it is yet another way of living my bliss full out and encouraging others to do the same. When I consider all of the overlapping soul circles and interwoven threads that led me from where I was to where I am now, I am blown away amazed.  There are times when I feel as if things in my life are rolling waaaayyyyy too slowly and other times in which I feel like Fred Flinstone with his scrambling feet, trying to keep up with it all. Yabba daba doooo!

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My first guest on Valentine’s night was Christine Arylo whose book Madly In Love With Me, I reviewed for Beliefnet a few months ago. In our conversation, we spoke about the pandemic of self criticism and the vital need for self love, since it fuels our every interaction, whether it be with family, friends, partners, co-workers, and the eco-system. She spoke about her ‘inner mean girl’ who had snagged her yesterday morning, ragging her with ”  Oprah has a couch , Marianne Williamson can pack a room like nobodies’ business. What have you done lately?”  She has been able to transform her “Mean Patty”; one of the personae into a talent scout who helps her to move forward and connect her to the right people. She shared that “Self esteem is knowing that you can do and be and have anything.” There is a difference between that and self love. “Self esteem is 1/10th of self love.  Self compassion and self forgiveness is part of it.” She suggests daring acts of self love for folks to practice, saying that our inner mean girls and inner mean dudes show up when we are about to expand our lives. Boy, do I know that one. My monkey mind inner critic chattered at me throughout the day, with imposter syndrome rants, “Who are you to host this show? What if you stumble over your words and forget what you were going to say? What if there are technical snafus?”  I then took a breath, ran through my checklist of what needed to be done and remembered the wise words of my friend Reid Mihalko who would remind me when I was nervous about facilitating a workshop called Cuddle Party, “Darlin’, the event will go as the event will go.”  And the event went well. My intention was like that of someone who is hosting a party. When I do that, I clean the house, set up the rooms so that they are comfortable for my guests, want the environment to be warm and welcoming,  make sure the food is yummy and plentiful.

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This morning, I had breakfast with a formerly cyber friend who has now become a face to face friend. We say across the table at The Down To Earth Cafe in Perkasie, PA  This too was a warm and welcoming place whose mission is

” to provide the best quality and freshest food possible.  We support our local farms and resources whenever possible.  We serve locally roasted coffee, honey, eggs, milk, maple syrup,produce, biscotti’s and plenty more.  We recyle our cooking oil to be turned into bio-diesel, reuse our waste for compost and recycle anything we can.  We hope you enjoy!” and enjoy I did!  I indulged in an apple cider latte that tasted like a liquid apple pie and a breakfast burrito with eggs, spinach, black beans and rice and even more delightful was the conversation with Janet Vasil, director of Your Media Moment. In the few hours we spent together, we laughed knowingly as we regaled each other with stories about the joys and challenges of a journalist’s life. She has had an amazing career on tv and print media; as a reporter and news anchor, covering ‘hard news’, yet this powerful woman seems to have balanced it with a soft, compassionate, fully in integrity side; knowing who she is. These days, she is an author and  ‘Media Expertizing Coach’, working with clients whose desire it is to get their message out there in the world. I could tell how passionate she is about her work; which essentially is platform and image building. We had such a blast realizing how many people we had in common.

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As I am typing these words, I am in amazement that on a Friday afternoon, I am sitting at my dining room table, in front of a cut glass vase that had belonged to my parents, filled with lovely flowers, sipping peppermint tea, watching the sun stream through the windows, gazing around my living room, eyes landing on the Kwan Yin statue given to me by my son’s girlfriend as a birthday gift, breathing in the aroma of a gingerbread candle, listening to a replay of the interview, not for picking it apart, but for celebrating how far I have come. This validates my relationships….all of them, but especially that with the woman in the mirror.

Please listen in to my show each Thursday night at 8pm est  on www.vividlife.me

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http://www.YourMediaMoment.com/

www.thedowntoearthcafe.com

http://blog.beliefnet.com/blissblog/2012/11/madly-in-love-with-me.html

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One Billion Rising

According to the website One Billion Rising:

ONE IN THREE WOMEN ON THE PLANET WILL BE RAPED OR BEATEN IN HER LIFETIME.*

ONE BILLION WOMEN VIOLATED IS AN ATROCITY

ONE BILLION WOMEN DANCING IS A REVOLUTION

On February 14th, people the world round will dance in support of the obsolete idea that violence against women is in any way acceptable. This global event is the heart child of author, playwright, activist and one woman force of nature Eve Ensler. Best known for her play The Vagina Monologues, she brought to the stage disturbing and soul shaking truths about the ways in which women and girls have been abused, and mistreated throughout the ages. She and the various actresses who sat on stools on an otherwise bare stage, reading from the text of the play itself gave voice to those who were silenced by fear and ignorance. Fifteen years ago, Eve orchestrated V-Day to bring it to the world stage. I had the chance to meet and interview Eve a few years ago when she came to Philadelphia to offer the one woman show called The Good Body, which explores the love/hate relationship women have with their bodies, since our various cultures tell us what is acceptable in terms of appearance, rather than encouraging us to feel at home in the skin we’re in. I f0und her to be friendly, approachable and welcoming, with a sense of passion for this work, born of being a rape survivor herself.

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From this solid platform, Eve has gathered around her a growing tribe of women and men who are calling out “ENOUGH!”.  When you dance tomorrow, wherever you are, whether in a downtown or rural setting, in front of city hall or at Carnivale, in a gym or park or even in the privacy of your home, know that you do not dance alone and that you do not dance  just for yourself, but instead for and with your sisters and brothers from all corners of the globe. As Eve shared in her you tube video below, when the sun rises in February 15th, a shift will have taken place so that we can all feel safe and free and expressed.

http://youtu.be/b5mFQiFvTCA  A Message From Eve Ensler

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http://youtu.be/7C1vDiYW5EI

Sisters of Providence practice a dance for the One Billion Rising event raising awareness of violence against women and girls. This particular dance was specifically choreographed for mature dancers and goes with the song “Break the Chain.” (Lyrics by Tena Clark, Music by Tena Clark/Tim Heintz)
The Sisters of Providence of Saint Mary-of-the-Woods, Indiana, are a congregation of Catholic sisters founded by Saint Mother Theodore Guerin in 1840.

www.onebillionrising.org

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