“Sometimes the only available means of transportation is a leap of faith.”-Margaret Shepherd
I have never met this woman, but if I did, I would tell her that her words are brilliant in their simplicity and speak volumes about the daily events in my life and yours. For some, it takes that kind of faith to get out of bed in the morning and keep on keepin’ on. For me, faith is about knowing something is so, without benefit of actually having experienced it. Folks like that are the resilient thrivers and are such wonderful models for all who find life on life’s terms to be daunting. Recently, I was speaking with someone who has the same thought each morning…”Oh no, not again,” meaning that he was facing another day where things would be the same as they ever were. I reminded him that nothing need be the way it was if we did all we could to change the outcome, by altering the input. Habitual thoughts keep us in those stuck places that aren’t much fun. What if, at every point, we could do a literal, physical hokey pokey and turn ourselves around until we were facing the direction we wanted to head? What if our leaps landed us precisely where we wanted to be? I have learned that they are far more likely to do so, if we set a landing point.
Some of my leaps look like starting over again after being widowed at 40, going to seminary to become an interfaith minister, beginning relationships, ending relationships, quitting a stable, but draining job I had held for 11 years. Hard to imagine that at the end of this month, I will have crossed the threshold of the one year mark and I’m still going strong.
I have been in free fall often throughout my life, wondering if my parachute would open on time, or I would come crashing earthward. Although I have never and will likely never jump out of a perfectly good airplane, I can imagine the time between heading out the door and being back on terra firma…a sense of terror mixed with exhilaration. It really is like that in life sometimes. I prefer to focus on the whheeeee~ aspects of emotional skydiving, enjoying the scenery along the way.
When I saw this image a few days ago, it occurred to me that there were times in my life when I was so watered down that I was a like a storm drain through which torrents ran, carried downstream at a rapid pace. In the service of refraining from rocking the boat and not making waves; I didn’t want people to be uncomfortable. I was speaking with my friend Ondreah the other night as we were enjoying dinner at an outdoor café in New Hope, PA and I was telling her that there is embedded in me this thought that ‘I can’t inconvenience anyone.’ It translates to playing by the rules, being conscious, on time, keeping my agreements which on the surface all seem like admirable qualities. It is when they become obsessive that problems can ensue and I lose myself. When I was growing up, I had two competing impulses. One was to honor my unique and magical self who loved communing with faeries and who had fanciful ideas and the other was to fit in. I have clear memories of making observations and verbalizing them, only to be met with quizzical…”what planet is SHE from?” looks by my peers. Red faced, I would retreat into my imaginary haven and swear never to be that vocal again. Blessedly, that didn’t last long and I drew into my life, people who were of my ‘tribe’ who spoke the same language and engaged in similar musings.
I sense that this dynamic had its origins back when my asthma attacks woke my parents in the middle of the night, sending my mom and me into the bathroom so that I could breathe in lung expanding steam. Regular visits brought us to our family doc’s office where we would sit for what seemed like hours to have allergy tests, injections and check ups. Although my mom and dad never indicated in any way that I was a burden, I somehow internalized the belief that I was and so I endeavored to be a ‘good girl’ who became an overachiever so they wouldn’t need to worry about me. Combine that with the compulsion to prove that I wasn’t going to allow ANYTHING to slow me down, I embodied the lyrics to the song 1980’s Matthew Wilder hit Break My Stride.
“Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride. No body gonna slow me down….oh no, oh no. I got to keep on moving.” That mindset has kept me on the run from relationships, from much needed sleep, from opportunities, and from comfort in my own skin. It has had me overworking and underplaying, internally fretting; since I wouldn’t want anyone to know that I was less than self assured. Yesterday while at a drumming circle, one of my friends approached me and from behind her glowingly purple sunglasses, she exclaimed that my writing inspired her on days when she felt less than optimal. I laughed and told her that it had the impact on me too which is one reason I write. It is my therapy and testing ground for what I most need to heal in my own life.
It is when I know who I am, genuinely, transparently, noisily, silently, messily, prettily me that I can love her passionately and invite others to as well. I am and you are….
http://youtu.be/uj8C43r4zm0 I Am What I Am-Gloria Gaynor
“Offer a vibration that matches your desire rather than offering a vibration that keeps matching what-is.” — Abraham
Esther Hicks has been sharing the collective energy/entity known as Abraham -Hicks since the late 1990’s. I became aware of ‘their’ messages in 2004 or so and they have resonated deeply with what I know to be so…thought is creative and we plant seeds that will blossom from them. It rings forth for me with a purity that has no subtext or hidden agenda. It just IS.
She and her husband Jerry, who passed in 2011, brought forth into the world 9 books that have highlighted the Law of Attraction that has so delighted me when I put it into practice each day.
From the website: www.abraham-hicks.com
A Synopsis of Abraham-Hicks’ Teachings
1. You Are a Physical Extension of That Which is Non-physical.
2. You Are Here in This Body Because You Chose to Be Here.
3. The Basis of Your Life is Freedom; the Purpose of Your Life is Joy.
4. You Are a Creator; You Create With Your Every Thought.
5. Anything That You Can Imagine is Yours to Be or Do or Have.
6. As You Are Choosing Your Thoughts, Your Emotions Are Guiding You.
7. The Universe Adores You for it Knows Your Broadest Intentions.
8. Relax into Your Natural Well-Being. All is Well. (Really It Is!)
9. You Are a Creator of Thoughtways on Your Unique Path of Joy.
10. Actions to Be Taken and Possessions to Be Exchanged Are By-products of Your Focus on Joy.
11. You May Appropriately Depart Your Body Without Illness or Pain.
12. You Can Not Die; You Are Everlasting Life.
While this may seem over the top or revolutionary to some, it makes perfect sense to me. Not sure when I first began to KNOW, not just believe (since beliefs change) that all of these statements are so, but I can say that life is a whole lot more fun and freeing when I live them. One of the questions I ask myself often is : “What beliefs or thoughts would someone have to hold in order to have the experience I am having now?” At times when the bank account has been less than bountiful, I have come to realize that my fear and scarcity thoughts have been holding the reins. That’s when I have shifted and reminded myself that I have ALWAYS had more than enough to take care of my needs. Lately I have been reinforcing the thought that I am in God’s employ and that the salary and benefits are ‘out of this world’. I then bring them into this world on a practical, day to day basis. When I am cultivating new gardens for my writing and speaking, I remember that I am setting up a win-win situation for all involved and so I boldly request to connect powerfully and peacefully with the decision makers. I know that the ideas are sparked so that I CAN actualize them in the world. It’s true for me and for you too.
Over the past year, I have been noticing a literal, physical vibrational change. There are times when I feel as if my body is buzzing. Not always a comfortable sensation, but one to which I am adapting. Less sleep, more inspired ideas and bold actions. Things manna-festing at the speed of thought; people, opportunities, events showing up as if by Divine Design. I am amazed but never surprised at these happenings.
Today, I invite you to begin being aware of the areas of your life in which your thoughts, inner knowings and actions align with the experiences you desire. Raise the vibration!
http://youtu.be/4zW4Z_BBG_M You CAN Control Your Vibration with Abraham-Hicks
Some solutions are so obvious that they are ‘hiding in plain sight’ and I like to say, that “if it had teeth, it would have bitten me.” This morning, I was presented with something that simple and profound. As I mentioned in yesterday’s blog, my friend Cindy Greb who writes Beliefnet’s Blessings Abound column, is visiting Pennsylvania where her parents and siblings live, from her new home in Crestone, Colorado. She is camping out in my living room. At the same time, my son is working on painting a room that will become my new office. For now, an extra sofa is hanging out between the living room and dining room, backed up against the dining room table at which Cindy and I are working. I was attempting to clamber over it, squeeze around it, balancing my almond milk, strawberry, banana fruit smoothie. Cindy grinned and said, “How about it we move the couch so you can get past it?” Duh.
How often do I make things much harder than necessary? I guess it’s the recovering Type A-semi-perfectionistic-workaholic in me that has to make it appear that I am working soooo much more diligently than I am. It occurred to me a few years ago that if I set the bar really high and hurtle over it, then I can give myself extra atta-girl’s for it and if I miss, then I can justifiably give myself wiggle room, because ‘after all, how could I possibly have reached the goal when it was so daunting?’ I am more conscious of that dynamic these days and go for easier, more graceful endeavors. There remains a sense of accomplishment, regardless.
What are the couches in your life? Mine look like worn out beliefs of lack and limitation, all the shoulda woulda coulda’s that I set in my way. The version of me that used to gaze back from my mirror has blessedly, gained some wisdom and actually put the couch down, since there was a time when I would have not only moved it myself, but carried it too.
These days, I’m even learning to allow for more time to lounge on it.