It amazes me the way the Universe works. I have long believed that I needed to bust my butt for everything I have achieved. I thought I needed to persist and pursue, to constantly seed plant to assure a bountiful harvest. I worked myself into a frenzy and heart attack that way. I used to joke that I was ‘functionally manic’; moving a gazillion miles an hour and justified it because it brought results. When I look back at it, they weren’t always the ones I wanted. Now that I am in surrender mode, doing less, I am allowing in more. I would have been frantic about turning down opportunities….now I am trusting that if I say no for now, it will come around again when I do have the energy to sustain it. I am allowing what I desire to come to me. In the past month, I have postponed workshops and speaking gigs, radio shows and writing jobs. The old me would have felt irresponsible, as if I was letting people down and they would never trust me again. How silly is that? What I have desired, prayed about and requested is coming to fruition.
What I have come to realize is that everything flows as it is meant to and that by letting go, I am able to gather. This desperate fear of not having enough, doing enough or being enough is going the way of all winds. Trust is a key element. I am astonished at the perfection of it all.
The welcome mat is out.