This meme reminded me of an experience I had several years ago. I was lying on the massage table of my friend Ute Arnold who practices a modality she created called Unergi which is body psychotherapy that speaks to all aspects of our being, as it speaks back to us and to her as the practitioner. There is a treasure trove of information in the temple that totes around our soul. I had gone to see her to take a look at some long standing core beliefs about what I thought I needed to do or be in order to be accepted and loved. It was planting the seeds for what I digging deep to excavate now.
She asked a question about a particular situation in my life with which she was familiar and I replied that I was seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. She smiled and asked an even more important question to the effect of “What if you didn’t need to wait for it and could bring the light in with you?” I laughed in response and said that I would be able to see more clearly what was around me, instead of fumbling around in the dark. How often I have done that, guessing and then second guessing what I was ‘supposed to do’, rather than stating with certainty because I had the information I needed that came from that which I could only receive by observing? Way too often. Laziness? Maybe. Not wanting to look at the drippy and echoing walls of a damp, cold cavern? Probably. Ducking for cover should a colony of bats come flapping on through? You betcha! My bats have taken the form of fears of failure and success, choices made out of expedience that have come back to bite me in the tush, saying yes when I meant no, saying no when I would love to have said yes, but felt unworthy of the gifts that were offered, unrealized dreams, unfulfilled expectations I created for myself. Rather than hiding from their sonar that beams in on me, I can allow them to eat the bugs on the cave walls, that bug me.
http://youtu.be/oMO4xdOS5jY The Cave-Mumford and Sons