I am feeling a sense of relief with a situation I have been fretting over recently. I sometimes find myself (or lose myself) in hamster wheel spinning over certain events over which I have no control. Once I take care of biz on my end, all I really can do is let go. As my friend Reid Mihalko has guided me wisely, “The event will go as the event will go.” Preparation quickly becomes obsession when I feel I need to control all outcomes in my world. Can I get an Amen, sistah on that one?
I am learning to engage in my work on all levels more methodically and setting up systems that are streamlined. I guess this right brain creative soul is growing her left brain, linear, logical side. I would have balked about the need to do that years ago. I used to believe that if I were to allow my more black and white, cerebral mind to take over, it would blot out the rainbow hues that I was born express. That couldn’t happen in a million years. One of my dearest friends and mentor, Yvonne Kaye used to tell me that “Discipline is freedom,” to which I would shake my head in disbelief since it felt quite the opposite; imprisoning in fact. What I didn’t get at the time was that within that structure lay all the freedom and play I could possibly desire. Scrambling around to get things done, forgetting where I put my keys, cell phone and wallet, would leave me breathless, frustrated and lacking in consciousness about what needed to be done. As I am now nearing the middle of my 5th decade, mindfulness becomes the key to success and sanity.
I am also easily distracted, shifting from writing articles to checking emails, to listening to music, gazing off out the window, wondering what else I need to accomplish in the next 24 hours, remembering dreams, running through my schedule in my head… What’s ironic is that I was never like that as a kid, from what I can recall, would never been diagnosed with ADHD (not that that definition even existed back in the 1960′s) It’s as if the playful creature in my mind is off and running, not wanting to miss a moment of potential fun; colorful, sparkly, silly, soul-full. How to balance it all is the challenge at times. Learning to do the dance with whatever partners show up, whether they are human, animal or experiential. This morning, I needed to juggle schedules, quickly shuffling things around, partly as a result of mis-communication. Took a deep breath and then inspired action and all is well. My left brain took hold and came up with a solution, hand in hand with my right brain who added creative flourish. I am eager to see what opportunities arise throughout the day to have them work in harmony to create magic.
http://youtu.be/vYwOtTMUz0c Brain Parts by Aaron Wolf