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10 Steps to Starting Your Self-Esteem File

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Five years ago I walked into my therapist’s office feeling like a Krispy-Kreme doughnut: I had no center. Everything I attempted both professionally and personally flopped. I had no sense of self, no confidence, and no faith in myself. I found nothing of value in my DNA.

So she assigned me a project that I have since called “The Self-Esteem File.” Here are 10 steps for starting your own.

Step One: Identify Ten Strengths in Yourself

My therapist first told me to try to identify ten of my strengths–ten positive qualities about myself—and to write them down on a piece of paper. This first step, trying to recognize your own assets, and to begin, ever so slightly, to believe in yourself again, is the most important. And the most difficult.

Think hard about what people have told you in the past: things that you do especially well, or about personality traits they admire. Think about your job. Why are you good at it? Or about your hobby. What makes you enjoy it? What is that something special about you?

You might also go through old birthday cards, or report cards, or annual reviews (excerpting ONLY the positive), think back to past conversations with friends, page through photo albums and scrap books—anything to recall those times when people recognized your talents and assets and expressed appreciation for them.

Step Two: Come up With Four People to List Your Strengths

If you were unable to come up with 10 positive traits about yourself, I totally understand that. Because the first time I tried to do it, I couldn’t get there either. I stopped at two: I had a nice-shaped nose and thick fingernails. And those two qualities were exactly making me feel whole again.

So here’s the next step: you need to come up with four people who will write that list for you.

Now I know what you’re thinking: if I had four people in my life who would tell me why I am wonderful, then I wouldn’t have low self-esteem….right? I admit that coming up with four friends is easier for an extrovert like me who publishes all of her insecurities and personality flaws online for everyone to read than it is for a very private, introverted person. But I’m thinking that there are four people in your life who could do this for you. Not necessarily friends … maybe co-workers, or siblings, or teachers, or pastors, or US postal service carriers. Think about people who have complimented you in the past. Go there.

Step Three: Make Four Friends

If you still can’t think of four people in your life who could identify and list 10 of your assets, then you need to make more friends. And I have some ideas! Go read my post “12 Ways to Make Friends,” (http://blog.beliefnet.com/beyondblue/2007/10/12-ways-to-make-friends.html), in which I mention a few strategies like: joining a book club, volunteering with a charity or civic association, getting involved with your church, going online and joining a group like “Group Beyond Blue” (http://community.beliefnet.com/beyondblue),  seeking a support group, taking a night class, getting a dog (pet owners stick together), stealing friends from other friends (my favorite), carpooling to work, attending a conference, connecting with your alumni associations (attending reunions and so forth), and talking to strangers (which is how I met my guardian angel, Ann).

Step Four: Ask Your Four People to Make the List

Now that you have at least four people who can ideally compile a list of positive traits for you, what do you say to them????

I know. This is not easy. Because it is admitting that you are, well, in a bit of a rut. Which is why you can make up something like the following (which isn’t a lie … really!): “For a project I’m doing with an online group, I need to assign four people with the task of listing 10 positive traits about me. I thought of you since you’re such a positive and complimentary person. Would you ever consider doing that for me?”

If you know the friend well, you might say something a tad more revealing: “Hey, you know, I’ve been feeling really down on myself, and someone suggested that I have my friends compile a list of my character strengths, because I can’t really see any. Would you mind doing that for me?”

Step Five: Buy and Label the Folder

Next comes one of the easier steps: simply drive (or walk) to the drug store or to an office supply shop and to buy a folder. Any color. Any style. Write the words “Self-Esteem File” on the front. Make it so obvious that you would be embarrassed if anyone found it.

Why? Because if your home catches on fire, you want to be sure to grab the right file: the one with all the warm fuzzies inside.

Step Six: Start Collecting the Letters

One by one, as you collect your letters of affirmation, place them in the self-esteem file. If two weeks go by, and you haven’t received anything, which makes you feel worse than when you started this project (my apologies), say something like this to your four people: “Um, Dude, I gave you a very important assignment that you’ve blown off so far. Now get your butt off the couch, and start writing!”

Step Seven: Find Four More Friends

Most of the time, one, two, three, or four of the four people don’t follow through on their promise, which is why you need a list of four additional people to serve as alternatives in case your lazy so-called friends bail on this task. So, review step three on the different ways you can meet friends, and say to your additional four people something like this:

“As you may or may not be aware of, I need some affirmations. Lots of them. Because there is a voice inside of me that is constantly telling me that I am a worthless piece of animal waste. I’d like to believe otherwise. That’s where your job comes in. Could you PLEASE list ten positive qualities about me? Why are you my friend? (If you are extremely wealthy or famous, skip that one.) Why do you return my calls? (If they don’t, skip that one.) What would you say at my funeral? (But reassure them that you have no plans of dying right now.) You see, I am starting a self-esteem file, and I’d love for your positive words to be among the first (of the millions of letters that will follow). If you have any. Which I’m sure you must. Right? THANKS SO MUCH.”

Step Eight: Propose an Exchange of Affirmations

If asking friends for a list of 10 positive traits still has you a bit freaked out, because it is ASKING something of someone, and I know (believe I KNOW) how hard ASKING can be, here’s an idea: propose an exchange of affirmations. I rub your back if you rub mine. I tell you 10 positive things about you (if, you know, you can do that for your friend), and you tell me 10 about me. A little collaboration. That’s not so scary, right?

Step Nine: Continue to Collect Affirmations

Become an affirmation hoarder. That’s right. Whenever anyone says anything remotely positive (“You smell interesting today”), record it: on a post-it, legal pad, receipt, or on anything that you can shove into your self-esteem file. Pretend you are a New York Times reporter with the assignment of breaking the case that you are a precious, loveable, wonderful human being that so many people in this world appreciate, love, respect, and admire.

Put into your file all those letters and cards and notes and e-mails that are complimentary in any way. Look also for “proof” in the past that you are worthy and loveable with more than 10 positive attributes: professional feedback, birthday cards, thank-you notes, Mother’s Day presents (if they are made of paper), Valentines.

Step Ten: Read it!

As you watch your self-esteem file widen, and fatten, and thicken, and grow, a curious thing might happen … you might not depend on it so much. You’ll graduate to what David Burns, M.D., author of “10 Days to Self-Esteem” calls “unconditional self-esteem.” Explains Burns: “You realize that self-esteem is a gift that you and all human beings receive at birth. Your worthwhileness is already there and you don’t have to earn it.”

That hasn’t happened to me yet. And it’s been three years. I still read my file fairly often, and continue to stock it full of affirmations whenever I get one. This is true, though: because of my self-esteem file, I no longer feel like a doughnut. I have a center, even if it jiggles too much and is soft.

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noch

posted October 26, 2011 at 11:56 pm


losing self esteem is part of my depression. i lost my self confidence and don’t know what my worth is
thanks for the tips to reain some of it
noch



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jude

posted October 27, 2011 at 5:37 am


Good to read that I am not such a misfit. There are others out there just like me searching for meaning, a sense of belonging and worth.without a support rystem it is easy to let the gremlins inside my head take me down so low I don’t know how to raise my head and my heart.Friendship helps immeasurably.Gotta get on the ball about that. thanks for the tips on where to find them.



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Frank

posted October 27, 2011 at 9:19 am


Hi Therese,
No long after you offered the idea about the Self-Esteem File I pursued it, on a lark I suppose – but also because I needed it. The response, as you know, was gratifying. I was amazed to find out how folks felt about me. It was wonderful. So, when I saw this today, I immediately shared it on my face book page to encourage my friends – my loved ones. They are precious to me and this was a wonderful gift I could give from the heart. Thank you, dear friend. Blessings…



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Jean

posted October 27, 2011 at 9:35 am


Lately, I’ve been feeling overly depressed and rarely have any self-confidence. I would love to recapture the self-confidence I had in my 20s – I would also be willing to let the 20s keep things like lustrous hair and glowing skin, if I could just have my confidence back! :) Thanks for the advice.



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Rooster

posted October 27, 2011 at 1:00 pm


I’m not convinced any of this is a good idea. How much happiness can blank affirmations really give you? They don’t touch the core of what’s bothering you. In Buddhist meditation, we would advise doing lovingkindess meditation to diminish the ill will you feel toward yourself, and also noticing the three characteristics, that your negative attitudes toward yourself are not you, will not last, and cause you to suffer. It becomes easier not to believe these thoughts and to let them pass with equanimity. Or as we say in Focusing, to cultivate a Self-in-Presence that is larger than those thoughts but that can listen to what they are afraid of, what they are not wanting, and what they might want for you. Touching their felt sense could allow them to shift. These are methods that allow you to understand deeply what’s going on. Giving yourself affirmations keeps you embroiled in the self-defeating mechanism. “I suck!” “No I don’t! I’m great because…” “No, you’re not!” It’s important to get outside of this because you can argue with yourself all day. Insight meditation and Focusing allow you to step out, and it gets easier to do over time. It can be good to call a friend, though, if it gets really difficult.



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Mimi

posted October 27, 2011 at 5:53 pm


I’m sorry – that’s a bit too egocentric to me. I can imagine catching up with old friends and then asking them to list 10 things they see as my strengths.

I have low self-esteem myself, and the best way to come out of it is to get out there and do something for someone else.

I’m bi-polar too, been hospitalized a few times, hit the dumps at the time because I was focusing too much on myself and wasn’t doing for other people – the old ‘Woe is me’ routine. Take your mind off your own problems by helping the less fortunate. Stop making it all about yourself.



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Pete

posted November 3, 2011 at 7:44 pm


It is a little hard for some to stomache this idea at first, and something I learned after reading Matt McCovann’s book “Feel The Magic in Your Mind”, is that all this stuff is useless if you don’t really want to change (because you’ll never put what really works into action) … I found that our brains/minds are “wired” to protect themselves, and therefore protect the beliefs that live there — so if you believe that life can’t be any better, then your mind will close down to ideas that will help! Crazy huh?? But true (certainly from my experience) … so anyway, I think it’s a great post – I love this idea, and hope that people can “push through” to try it for themselves and see how good it feels to focus on your “good bits”.



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posted November 6, 2011 at 4:38 am


Thank you .So useful.Wish you happiness.Good luck.VCX X



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