Finding God on the Edge
Day of Fire frontman Joshua Brown found God after a near-fatal drug overdose. Luckily, God still wants him to rock.Music Association (GMA) Dove awards, including New Artist of the Year, Rock Album of the Year, and Rock Recorded Song of the Year for their single, "Cornerstone." Currently on tour, he spoke with Beliefnet about his tranformation, his new band, and how God "hooks you up."
In some of your old songs with Full Devil Jacket, "Screaming Jesus" and "Cardboard Believer" you talk about faith in a dark way. In "Cardboard Believer" you sing, "Would it take too much to save me? I watch my life pass by." Were you angry with God at that point?
I was shooting up cocaine during that album. For some reason, at one point I felt that fame and money would bring me peace--especially when I was writing that song. I always knew that God was there, but I thought he was mad at me. I thought he was pushing me down. I thought every time something good would start to happen in my life, God would punish me because I wasn't living the way I wanted to and he just pulled the rug out from under me.
Why did you feel that way?
I don't know. I guess because I knew I wasn't living the life that He wanted me to live. And I thought He was just angry at me. But I wasn't really angry at Him. In the song "Full Devil Jacket" I knew that at some point, it was all going to have to turn around. I knew that at some point I would have to give my life over to Him and I just wasn't ready to do it.
Can you tell me a little about your faith background? Did you grow up in a religious household?
No, not at all. I grew up in a divorced home. It's not that my parents were against God. They knew about God, we just never really pursued him. I grew up in my mom's house and we knew God as religion. We thought God was a church service. And we really didn't come to know him until the last couple years, so growing up with no religion in the house, I started partying at 15 and, started doing drugs, and eventually I just figured out that I couldn't go on any longer that way and that's when I started looking toward God.
Can you talk a little bit more about your overdose? Do you feel like it was God's doing?